She's Sun and Rain

Wake Up Laughing...it's a song by Martina McBride which I really like...and lately that's what I've been doing. Something I've always wanted to do...wake up in a 'happy smiley' mood on the way to my 'happy smiley' office. :) I love my job and I am seriously so thankful for what God has been doing in my life...it amazes me how fortunate I am. This morning I was able to give the devotion for Carmel Christian School :) It was really fun and got to meet some cool kids. This week is our retreat for work and we have gone white water rafting and out to a nice dinner to Villa Antonio and we're getting pedicures and manicures...it really has been a great time. I'm so blessed, and God is continuing to grow me and heal me, it's the coolest thing. So tomorrow, I'll wake up laughing, roll over, and open the blinds to greet another wonderful day! ;)

Yesterday was the fourth of July. I went to the beach, Wilmington, then to my dad's house in Calabash, and then to Raleigh to hang out with some fun people and watch fireworks. Overall, a great week. My grandmother still collects and keeps out an enormous amount of 'stuff'. But that's just her. My grandpa is 84 and still mowing the grass and has a garden, it's just him. My aunt Sharlene, is still in self-improvement mode. We visited with the Humphries, Karen and Nancy's parents at Myrtle and hung out with Kendall and Karen and the boys. Lots of fun. I got some sun (a little). :) I got a text from Pallie, it said "this is our holiday gin, happy fourth of july, i miss you" and then Todd, Jay, Shae and I were having conversation about traditions and it got me to thinking. When I was younger we always went to Badin Lake for the 4th, we had a place there, (my aunt and uncle live there still) and on the 4th they would have a boat parade at noon, and we would...

I love my job! We now have off every Friday in July, I'm going to Indiana, maybe Alaska, Dallas, and Phoenix, all in the next month. And I get to travel all through the winter, and I work with the best people ever! And Emily's wedding is next Saturday 7-7-07 and it's going to be so fun! And I'm going to the beach :) And my uncle just got a promotion as the President of Wachovia Atlanta! And I get to go hang out with his fam in August. Woooooo. And Nancy had her baby and they might be at the beach for the Anniversary party this weekend! This week is going to rock!

That name has retired, it was going to be the name I called my house...so that there would always be fun, and laughter... smiles. Even though everyone has hard times, I wanted, when I got married to call my house something. Planet Fun has retired. It can be no more. I'm taking suggestions for the new household name. Of course there's no house yet, and no fam, but I've gotta come up with something more clever than Planet Fun. Ideas? House of a thousand dreams? House of Ha? Laughter Land? ohhh I might like that one.

Last night I was analyzing what it takes to 'heal' your heart, or in this case, my heart. I even went over a sord-of check list with my best friend..ok here's what I'm doing, haha. Counselor-check, prayer-check, word-check, more prayer-check, reading-check, spending more time on me-check, staying single for a while-check. Taking myself out of the situation-check, not getting sucked back into the on-going stuff that keeps coming up-check. So now, time. Hopefully sooner than later and I'm not leaving anything out on the heal-to-do list. God can heal my heart and I know that he will. And I'm excited about what God is doing, because seriously, other than the past week of mishaps, God is working in my life and I know he is blessing me because of obedience to get out of something that was bringing me down. It's exciting...the job and friends and fun things I'm getting to do. And I know I'll fall in love again, and that's exciting too...God's man in...

Time tells the truth in all things. Wise words from a wise person. Everything that is in the dark will be exposed. All I can do is be obedient...! Praise the Lord for saving me from this world and all of it's mess, and knowing that I can trust in HIM! No matter what I have been through or the mistakes I have made, I can start new by God's grace and mercy, that is amazing.

I'm going to run in the Va Beach 1/2 marathon, and I'm going to start training today. It's September 2nd. And I'm going to do it. I've just finished 2 books, Captivating, and Gift-wrapped by God. And I'm beginning Tender Warrior tonight. I'm praying more for my family, friends, etc. I'm reading in the word EVERY DAY, hopefully twice, or 3 times a day. I got invisalign. And I'll be done by September, just in time for Rebecca's wedding... can I tell you how excited I am about Rebecca's wedding! I'm putting God first. And when I am ready to date again...this is my prayer... Dear God, I prayed, all unafraid (as we're inclined to do), I do not need a handsome man but let him be like You; I do not need one big and strong nor yet so very tall, nor need he be some genius, or wealthy, Lord, at all; but let his head be high, dear God, and let his eye be clear, his shoulders straight, whate'er his state, whate'er his earthly sphere; and ...

Today is yet, another brand new day. I woke up this morning and His mercies were new...I was made new again. Every day. Renewed by Jesus. By what He did for me. Any sins, my sins, no matter how disgusting or distasteful or dispicable, are forgiven. I can forgive others, TRUTH exists... and all we need is Love. Love one another. Speak kindly. Build each other up. LIVE TRUTH. That's what I'm going for today. Life is real, people are real and feelings are real. Emotions...love and hurt and pain and... we can forgive each other, we can do things right, because God allows us to, wants us to. To see the good in each other...not the bad. We are sinful human beings, but we are made holy and righteous,.... once again I am reminded I probably sound cliche' but it really is true... if Paul used these words, so can I. Here is the reality of it... We all suck.... but we all can be forgiven and made new by God, no matter what we have done, and we can all forgive each other for what we ha...

Lovin' this song... She's a yellow pair of running shoes A holey pair of jeans She looks great in cheap sunglasses She looks great in anything She's I want a piece of chocolate Take me to a movie She's I can't find a thing to wear Now and then she's moody She's a Civic without a sunroof With her blonde hair a-blowing She's a soft place to land And a good feeling knowing She's a warm conversation That I wouldn't miss for nothing She's a fighter when she's mad And she's a lover when she's loving She's a Saturday out on the town And a church girl on Sunday She's a cross around her neck And a cuss word 'cause its Monday (AMEN!) She's a bubble bath and candles Baby come and kiss me She's a one glass of wine And she's feeling kinda tipsy (yea, so) She's the giver I wish I could be And the stealer of the covers (um, ok I confess) She's a picture in my wallet Of my unborn children's mother She's the...